jesus fuck, I am so goddamn lonely.
like.
ugh.
okay, so I was supposed to have a date this evening. nothing big, I’m not like head over heels with the guy or anything, but it’s someone I’ve been talking to on okc on & off for a few months, and he asked me out, so I said yes. but then at like, noon, I get a text that’s like, hey, sorry, i have to cancel, I forgot I had to cover someone’s shift and I wont get off work until 9:30.
oh.
okay.
that’s whatever, life happens, okay. but then he was online. all. evening. he’s an air traffic controller, you can’t sit on okcupid while you’re directing planes, so obvs something was going on there. anyways, I haven’t heard from him since this afternoon text, so honestly I’m saying fuck it and letting it go, I wasn’t too in to him anyways.
but it’s just kind of salt in the wound, y’know?
I just want to want someone again. I just want to be wanted.
my heart just doesn’t feel right tonight. it just doesn’t, and I don’t know what to do about it besides sit here and write shit on my tumblr, because it’s the only place that I can. can someone just come cuddle?
